Where are those people who just glow and sparkle? They used to pop up everywhere. On the L train just finishing my favorite book with a smile, in the park posing on a bench in the most perfect light for a breathtaking photo, in front of me at a deli on a late night ordering a peppermint tea and a sandwich that included kimchi and Russian dressing, asking me the most hilarious and cheeky question to get me to talk to them at a house party.
I've been looking for a creative cosmopolite. The perfect someone who is comfortable in their skin and shares a new yorky still down to earth vibe, with just a drop of dorky/geeky/nerdy chic added in. I seek out the people who live their life loud. So much so that all the things they do, believe, and are interested in, simply explodes and rides on the surface of the aura surrounding them, so that you can see (and feel) all that they are, from half a block down the street. And then they still own mystery and so much more beautiful complexity when you actually get to talking. They leave you curious and eager to be a bigger part of their world.
Those were the people who had me checking the missed connections on craig's list, had me hoping that my phone would start vibrating out of control in my pocket, had me dreaming about what they would taste like. Where are they now?
I've developed lackluster crushes here and there, had pointless evenings with a few who I thought had potential... but, now I'm bored. My options for love, relationships, and dating here in Korea just suck. The word of the day explains it all. Whatever it is I'm looking for, I'm pretty sure it's not here. Four weeks till Thailand. Five months till I leave all together. Let the countdown begin.
Word of the Day for Thursday July 21, 2005
ennui \on-WEE\, noun:
A feeling of weariness and dissatisfaction arising from lack
of interest; boredom.
He glanced at his heavily laden bookshelves. Nothing there
appealed to him. The ennui seemed to have settled into his
--Amanda Quick, With This Ring
He was often off sick or playing hooky and suffered from a
kind of ennui, a mixture of listlessness and willful
--Elisabeth Roudinesco, Jacques Lacan (translated by
Yet if she felt anything it was ennui,... the grey sky
and the cold wind obliterating every impulse she might have
felt to seek comfort in another climate, another landscape.
--Anita Brookner, Falling Slowly
He was ashamed and unhappy, adrift with a senseless ennui.
--Brian Moynahan, Rasputin: The Saint Who Sinned
Ennui is from the French, from Old French enui, "annoyance,"
from enuier, "to annoy, to bore," from the Latin phrase in
odium, "in hatred or dislike."
Synonyms: tedium, boredom, listlessness, weariness. Find
more at Thesaurus.com.